oh fuck. last night i read that lesbian masterdoc. i'd already read it, but not so, like, deeply, just some parts. i read it completly last night, and, fuck. comphet it's my worst enemy rn. i have so much compeht and it's making me suffer ngl. i hate this. i just, want a hug or something. i don't like the feeling of comphet. why i can't just like girls, don't like men, and just be happy with that?? no. comphet exists. i hate this.
Sunday, October 31, 2021
Saturday, October 30, 2021
do you ever wanted to kill yourself so bad?? i did. i'm doing it rn. i just can't take this shit anymore. i want to set myself on fire. i want to smash my had in wall until it's red and full of blood. i want to cut, punch, and slap me. i can't with this. all the hate i have in my heart it's based on me. if i hate somedy, it's because i'm jealous and insecure. it's always about me and my problems. i hate myself. i'm an useless bag of trash. 29/8/2020 it's the date of the last time i selfharm, and i wan to do it rn. one year. one fucking year of resisting the idea of burning, punching, and slaping myself. that year exist because i have people around me, no because i care about me. if i didn't have this people, i will be dead. i hate myself. i want to die.
first blog.
hello, it's me, clowniestar. there are so many people that know who i am just of thinking about "clowniestar". if you are one of those people, just keep this blog a secret, and act life if you didn't know this.
the point of this blog it's just to use this like a diary. i'm gonna be writing things like how was my day and other kind of shit that nobody really cares. like. who tf cares about the life of a 14 year old. this is made to nobody sees this.
so yeah, see you in next blog, maybe.
update 18/6/2022
clowniestar isn't my username anymore, i'm carne now, but the point of the blog it's the same :]
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